her rainbow baby...

"When I look back at my pictures...and I really think about Deacon's birth, strong and clear feelings really stand out. I vividly remember all of the sudden stopping in the middle of labor and telling Nancy (the midwife) that I needed someone to light Norah's candle when the time was close.

I think it's because I needed her with me. 

A lot of days when I feel overwhelmed with these three kids, like I can't possibly do it anymore...but then I am struck with love that I push through. I think that's why Norah came to us and then left us...because without the pain of losing her, I don't know that I would be able to see through the chaos and stress to love this baby boy as much as I do. 

That was her gift to me. I feel as though I gave birth to two babies that day." 

-Jacquelyne Waters, mama to Camdyn, Jackson, Norah and Deacon